Lovelogue – Engineering 2nd Year

Continuation...

My college reopened and the first news I get is that she got transferred to some other college.

The college roads look deserted. Whenever I pass the chemistry lab, I could feel the scent of her. My mind plays a small recap. The first day I met her in the auditorium filling the admission forms. our first experiment together. our lab sessions together. our kiss in the store room. I could feel it till now. Then the truth caves in.

Our second year was going good. After all those ragging sessions we had, we can now rag the fresher. It was not official though, but we rag our juniors before getting them into our department. I was the General Secretary of my department. The tradition is to arrange an ice breaking session with our juniors’ offsite. All the arrangements were done. We seniors reached a bit early than the juniors. Juniors came in and everybody started calling them and ragging in groups. One girl caught my eyes though; she was all scared and kept her head down most of the time. I was interrupted by some of my friends and continued with the rest of the party.

After a while, I checked her again and I saw her crying standing in a corner. I went to appease her. She started sobbing more when I got there and caught everyone’s attention. Everyone thought I made her cry and started accusing me. She was so busy in crying to even bail me out. I became the bad guy of the evening.

Weeks passed, it was first cycle test last day. Cycle tests contribute to 20% of our final score. It’s such a relief after the exams. We guys went to the coffee shop, where we spend more time than our class rooms to chill out. The coffee shop is right in front of the girls’ hostel entrance and may be that’s why the business was always on all time high there. I saw her coming out of the hostel, she saw me and smiled. But the devil in me made me to take a stand with a grumpy face. She frowned and passed. The next day after class, as usual we were chilling out in the coffee shop. I saw her coming out and she smiled and me with a poker face. This continued for some days. She didn’t give up smiling and I didn’t give up my poker face.

On a weekend, I overslept and I found all my friends already left for a movie. I had no other place to go other than the coffee shop. I saw her coming out of the hostel again. How does she come out exactly when I hit the coffee shop? It was 12 noon and the coffee shop was pretty much deserted. She started walking towards the coffee shop. I don’t know why but my heart skipped some beats. She didn’t smile this time, she just passed me and went to order a coffee. She got her coffee and sat across me facing me on the other table. This time I smiled and she was having a poker face. I didn’t know if I should go and talk to her or hold my stance. She kept starting at me, her eyes talking a thousand but couldn’t understand what she was thinking though. Enough is enough; I stood and walked towards her. Her friends flocked her and I had to forcibly leave the place. I could see her eyes following me when I passed.

I was waiting for the next weekend and the days started to stretch. I faked as if I am sleeping to make sure my friends leave to make my move. I had to pretend sleeping for a long time than usual till everyone is out. I rushed to the coffee shop and found her with her friend in the shop. I got my coffee and a magazine and sat across her meeting her eyes. I could see her eyes lit up. AR Rehman’s melodious track was just setting the perfect ambience. She told her friend something, she turned and giggled and left. I was pretending reading the magazine. I saw her walking towards me.

She said, ‘Would you buy me a coffee?’

In the rush I forgot to get my wallet. I had to convince the owner to get a coffee.

I came with the coffee in my hand and saw her drinking coffee from my cup. She smiled and said,

‘This tastes better.’

I replied back with a stupid smile and started sipping the hot coffee without even realizing that it was burning my lips and tongue.

‘How are you?’ I asked.

‘Good.’ She continued. ‘Why are u avoiding me?’

‘No. I was not avoiding u. I never noticed u in the first place.’ I answered.

‘U are scared of me?’ she said. That was enough to instigate me.

‘Look. U made a scene that day in the freshers’ party. I came to help u and u made me look like a monster in front of the whole department.’ I poured out. I opened my mouth to continue but in a flash I felt something soft on my lips. My burnt lips with the hot coffee started to heal magically. It was a quick one though. I saw the coffee shop owner shocked. She ran out of the shop giggling. I sat there till the realization sink in. I left the coffee shop and I felt like flying back to my room light like a feather.

The time was flying away. Days passed like seconds and in no time our year end exams were around the corner. 20 days of day and night slogging and we are through.

We are both from the same city. So, decided to take a train for the year end vacation. Since we didn’t plan it well enough, we ended up traveling in a general compartment. The train was so crowded. A bunch of my college mates had booked some seats for them. We all adjusted in those seats. Everyone kept on talking about something or the other. The time started flying and nobody was sleeping. This is not what I had planned. She was sitting next to me and she slept on my shoulder. The sleep bug spread and soon the whole compartment was snoring. As soon as the lights were off, she grabbed my arm tightly and moved. I could see her pretty face bright and clear in the dark. She winked at me and smiled. She moved forward and her eyes closed. I know what to do next. I reached and kissed her on her lips. The 8 hours journey was over in 8 minutes.

Engineering 2^nd Year

The coffee shop

Her kiss is sugar

The caffeine is love.

Yeah. It’s the love express.

I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue – Engineering 1st Year

Continuation...

The engineering admissions took a bit more time to start. As any other guy who wants to do engineering would do, I applied for the colleges and waited for the call letter. It’s already been 1 month for her in the college.

I still remember the first day she called me and told me about the ragging in her college. Her college seniors asked if anyone had any boy friends. She said she told them that she has a boy friend. I asked her, ‘who is that?’ She said, ‘Who else? You!!! You have a problem with that?’ The usual romantic background score started playing in my mind. Then she said, ‘I didn’t want to say I don’t have anyone and get embarrassed in front of everyone.’

I was still hearing some background score, but this time it’s the funeral number, and what is being buried is my heart.

She called me the week after and told me about all her new friends and she even told them about our encounters and she said they felt pretty cool about it. I sighed and continued listening to all her short stories on only one topic, college.

Finally, the day had come to decide my next four years. I gave it a little thought. My brothers were busy in finding out about each and every college available and choosing what is best for me. I wanted to see how the world looks like away from home. The omen was good and I could choose a college away from home.

Soon, the word spread and everybody came to know, I am going to a different city to do my studies. All my friends inquired on why I am taking it in a different city. I just made a lame excuse that the college is good and wanted to do it there. I didn’t hear from her for a long time and the day I was leaving she called me.

I answered, ‘Hey. How are you?’

Between sobs she said, ‘I am fine. Why are you going away from me?’

I didn’t know what to say but said, ‘Miss u…’ and the line went dead.

I reached my college on my joining date 14^th July 2002. My parents were not allowed inside the auditorium and I was finishing my joining formalities. I had to wait my turn as there were many students doing the formalities before me. On the other side of the table, there was a girl sitting and looked all nervous. The hormones in me started its reactions. I wished the lady luck to put her in computer science department.

She went to meet a bespectacled office staff who was verifying the students certificates. I could hear her conversation clearly but all I could hear was ‘Computer Science’ I thanked the lady luck.

First day away from home. I thought I was strong, but couldn’t hold back my tears seeing my Mom and Dad leaving me in the strange place. I had asked for it and I know how to deal with it.

I had to share my room with two other guys. I came there first, I saw a shelf locked and was wondering who the smart guy is who reserved his shelf already even before getting his things.

I met my other room mate in some time. We introduced ourselves. We started arranging things and he took me to another room where he had one of his school mates. We all were excited about our first day. The hostel room walls were scribbled everywhere. The seniors had left some knowledge on the bad words and the slangs used in the college. We read all these new terms hard than our subjects. Another guy joined us, and through him, we met another one, and he happened to be from my department. Soon our network expanded with some more additions.

First day of college, though ragging was not allowed, we heard enough stories about it already. I was in the class a bit early. I took the third row on the left side; I found some bags on the first and second desk. More guys started coming in and they started filling the seats. The girl I saw in the auditorium came in and took her bag and moved to the other desk where all the other girls started filling in. I sat next to the guy I met the day before in hostel and we started ranking girls one by one as they entered.

We started counting the number of good girls in our class and being scared of ending up with no count, we relaxed our expectations a bit. We were so desperate that we started counting out loud and we could hear someone else is syncing with us in counting. And from then on, those three guys joined our club.

After the class, we went back to our hostel and started discussing about girls in each department. Soon we started making a list of top ten from each class.

The days rolled on with more fun and time was spent most of the time in chatting and playing cards. Soon we even christened our gang and were enjoying each and every moment of our college life.

I didn’t get a chance to meet this girl until one day in the chemistry class, her instruments were not working and the instructor had directed her to me to the experiment. I was excited on what experiment I am going to do. I had to use the pipette to suck some acid for testing and was doing it. She was standing beside me and observing what I was doing. I did it more meticulously to impress her. After taking my readings, I passed her the pipette and the other chemicals. I sucked the pipette and didn’t rinse it. I expected her to rinse it before using it. She started sucking the chemical and the challenge is to stop it right exactly at a mark She was struggling to get the chemical sucked in exactly unto the mark.

She looked at me and smiled sheepishly, and attempted couple of times more and couldn’t get it.

This time she looked at me and said, ‘Can u help me with this?’

I grabbed it from her and was not sure whether I should rinse the pipette before using it as out of anxiety she was literally sucking on the pipette for a long time.

I saw her and she smiled. I then started sucking the pipette and both the chemicals in me and the pipette started rising.

The two hours session went in a jiffy. We took all the readings together and she promised to meet me tomorrow to check the calculations. I skipped dinner that day.

Next day she looked so bright and dashing in her yellow salwar. She came to me and apologized for not doing the calculations. I hid the calculations I had done and we started doing the calculations together. She was so engrossed in the calculations and I in her.

The next lab session, her instruments were fixed and I cursed the institution for being so dutiful. She looked at me and went to the instructor and spoke to him and he gave a couple of glance and nodded. She turned smiling at me and came to me and said, ‘Can I do the experiment with u?’ I kept nodding for five minutes and this time some heads turned towards us.

Soon chemistry made to the top of my favorite subjects.

I used to hate the fact that there are only two sessions in a week allocated for chemistry lab. The weeks used to drag but the lab sessions used to be short.

From that day onwards, we started doing our lab sessions together.

The exams were round the corner. She asked me to meet her in the temple.

I was on top of the world that day. I started imagining all sort of things on our meeting that day. I had changed into fresh pressed clothes and changed, don’t know how many times. I reached the temple; she was waiting for me outside. She smiled and we both went in. She closed her eyes and was praying for a long time. After we finished our prayers, I inquired on why she called me.

She said, ‘Should there be a reason to see u???’

The background score started playing loud now. The bells ringing started ringing deep in my heart.

She continued, ‘My parents are trying to get me into one of the colleges in my city itself.’

The romantic bells changed its tone and sounded like the funeral bells.

‘I was praying God that I shouldn’t get admission in any of the colleges in my city.’ She winked at me. ‘Will you pray for me?’

I was so dumbstruck that I was just nodding my head.

Final lab exams were going on. I was walking to my desk passing the store room. Suddenly a hand from the store room pulled me into the room. It was her in her lab coat with a mischievous smile.

She asked me, ‘Got scared?’

‘What are you doing? Our Exams are going on.’ She came to the store room making an excuse to get the test tube.

She put her finger on my lips and leaned towards me and kissed on my forehead. The chemicals inside me started boiling. I pulled her close to me and my lips felt her soft lips. I was getting better in art of kissing.

We heard someone opening the door. By the time it was fully open; we had some test tubes in our hands and went out.

Finally, our first year exams were over and everybody packed the bags heading home for the vacation.

I met her in the train station. We didn’t speak for most of our time together. I pulled out a gift wrapped packet out of my pocket. She was surprised and opened her eyes were all wet. She hugged me tight and I could feel my shoulders getting wet. I had flicked the pipette we had shared the first day of our Chemistry lab and gifted it to her.

The train started moving and I had to force her to get into the train. The train gained pace and even my legs started gaining pace after it. She gleamed through the window and all I could see were her wet eyes trying to say something and the train disappeared into the dark.

Engineering 1^st Year

The chemicals started reacting,

The week was long,

The lab sessions were short,

She passed the test tube,

I touched her soft fingers,

The electrons were exchanged.

I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue – High School Final Year

Continuation...

Final year started with lots of threats. I started getting free advice from everyone I met. All my classmates already started allotting slots for the whole year on finishing the subjects and giving mock exams. I don’t know why people make such long schedule which is hard to keep up in the first place.

In our class there was a fashion of tagging each girl and boy; least bothered if they like it or not. We even had some severe boring counseling sessions with the staff several times for this behavior. All the juniors were scared to step into our class. Leave alone students, the staff who handle primary and secondary classes seldom visited our class. We were gaining reputation. The whole school hated us, but who cares.

I was not tagged to anyone for a long time. There was this girl who used to sit in a corner and my friends always tried to make progress towards her. I never noticed her all these days for what ever reasons. Most of her friends were opted out of science and were doing arts. She was kind of left alone.

We play a lot of pranks. I used to pretty cautious all the time, but one noon after lunch. Everyone rose to greet the teacher who started his session. One of my friends from behind laid the soiled paper wrap in which he had packed pooris for lunch on my seat. I didn’t notice and sat on the whole thing and didn’t realize for the whole session and everyone started laughing out loud as the session was over and the teacher was out. I rose to thank the teacher and the wrap was stuck on my butt. I stood there embarrassed for a some time and started chasing all those guys who sat behind me.

But the damage was already done. It got dried and made some yellow batches on my pant and the news had spread so much that the whole class started noticing that. I was so embarrassed and had to spend 3 hours in the restroom trying to clean it and drying it.

Out of all those laughs, I could clearly distinguish this laugh. I saw her eye to eye giving me ‘poor baby’ look and laughing.

Her eyes were close to tears because of laughing and her eyes went as small as her jaw bones were exercising a lot lately. She had a button nose and wide lips perfectly split to show her white glistening teeth. Am I exaggerating… Doesn’t matter though… :=)))

She started smiling at me from then on when ever she saw me after that. I got so impatient and confronted her once. She said I didn’t smile at you and bent a little to check my butt and smiled again. That’s it… I couldn’t take it anymore.

I said, ‘Be ready to shed tears in sometime soon.’ and left from there.

This prank has caught up like wildfire and everyone started saving their lunch wraps and sent a guy to the restroom daily. I did the same the thing to the guy who did that to me though.

Girls in our class were never game to all these silly pranks. But the day had come when her friends had planned to do the same to her.

The first session after lunch was over and the guy next to me passed the soiled wrap to the girls’ side. I was just seeing what was happening, but was not that interested in whatever was going on. The guy next to me whispered, your girl is going to get it today.

I didn’t understand. I was still trying to figure out who my girl is. I saw her friends trapping her. She was standing and discussing something pretty animatedly to the girls before her. The chance was utilized and the trap was laid perfectly. Initially I was appreciating the act and slowly my focus felt on her lips. I don’t know why but I couldn’t take my eyes off her lips.

She was almost done and was about to sit. I decided, I would never allow this to happen to her and all of a sudden I screamed her name at the top of my voice. The whole class came to a stand still and it was so silent like a prayer hall and everybody eyes fixed on me. She turned and noticed the wrap on her seat. She cursed her friends and threw it in the trash. She looked at me and my eyes were transfixed on her lips and I could see them beautifully splitting into a smile at me. I could hear a romantic song in the background.

It was soon interrupted by the dirty and murderous glances from all my other classmates. I broke the code. I broke the code of pranksters. There is no way to escape this. Luckily the teacher entered for starting the next session.

After the school was over, she caught me on my way back to home and asked me why I helped her.

I said, ‘I don’t know.’

She replied, ‘Friends?’ I nodded and left controlling all the excitement inside.

Next day, she entered the class and the whole class started repeating my name. Even though I liked it, I acted as if I am protesting against it and was waiting for her reaction. She blushed and went and sat in her seat. I felt like a feather being caressed by a nice cold breeze.

From that day on, the same story continued. I pseudo protested and she blushed.

Friends are the best matchmakers in the world.

In the English class, I was so lost and was day dreaming about her. The teacher got so irritated and asked me to explain the class whatever I followed till now on Oliver Twist. I had finished this story sometime back as I like reading stories a lot.

Everybody was listening and the teacher started cursing me and started forecasting my future, but my only goal was to impress her. I gathered all the courage and started explaining about Oliver Twist. I spoke non stop for 30 mins and finally finished it. Some of my friends had a good nap in the meantime. But suddenly, one guy started clapping and it had caught up and even my friends in sleep woke up and started clapping mostly not knowing what is happening around.

It was foolish of me to think she would be impressed by a 30 min long speech. She was among the sleeping beauties in the class. She acted as if she was following everything.

After the session, she said, ‘U rocked today.’

I replied. ‘U slept today.’

She said,’No. I was so lost into thoughts about us.’ She blushed and went and joined her friends.

I stood there petrified transforming into a feather once again. Suddenly I felt a strong smack on my butt, I turned, and my principal was standing with a whip. He asked me to stop day dreaming and get back into my seat.

I repeated those lines a100 times/minute in my mind.

The principal was explaining about great minds and encouraging us to become scientists. The whole class was quite and I completely in boozeworld (other name for heaven).. :=)))

Suddenly, the principal asked the class, ‘Name some female scientists?’

Before anyone could answer, I told her name loud enough for the whole class and the principal to stare at me. I was mentally prepared for a blasting, but luckily there was a scientist in that name and he started praising me for telling such a unique name and the whole class burst into laughter. Except the principal everybody else in the room knew the reason…

One day, we decided to go out for a walk together. I went home changed into the trendy neat clothes I could find and she was wearing a white shirt and knee length skirt. I couldn’t help myself staring at her legs. Till we crossed the territory we know, I walked 100 meters following her. Then she started slowing her pace and I increased mutually. In no time, we started walking together in the unknown lands.

It was a deserted path and suddenly a black cat crossed in front of us and she grabbed my hand in reflex. I thanked that cat 100 times and she maintained the grip for the rest of our walk. I could bet, I would have easily popped a thermometer as my body was so hot and now I started understanding about all the chemical reactions better. We spoke about anything under, over and around the sun and time flew just in a flash.

We started taking such strolls in regular intervals.

One of my friends parents were leaving town and I bribed him saying I will help him in the exams to get his house key. I convinced her to come over as we couldn’t be free enough on the roads. She told me that she will be there only for 10 mins and agreed to come.

Everything was set and she was sitting next to me in the couch. I switched on the TV and was browsing through all the channels and was constantly changing it. She inquired what I am searching for. I didn’t answer and continued flipping through the channels.

Then she said, ‘Are u looking for porn?’ I dropped the remote from my hand and was dumbstruck.

She started laughing losing control. Like Arjuna in Mahabaratha who saw only the bird he was aiming at, I could see only her lips. And in a swift motion, I caught her in my arms and started kissing her on her lips. She showed a mock resistance in the beginning and relaxed after some time. I opened my eyes and saw her eyes tightly shut. We gave a break for water and finished one bottle each catching up breath. This time it was her turn, she pushed me on the floor and the next session started then.

After having a couple of sessions more, it was time for her to leave. I went home and didn’t eat or drink or touch my lips and was feeling quite high on 4 shots of kisses. This secret ingredient is pretty powerful.

Our good times continued till the end of the year with more adventures.

We gave our final exams; I managed to get an engineering seat. She joined arts............

High School Final Year

I was a clown,

I was her savior,

I could feel the chemical reactions.

The time is up to see the results,

We spoke anything,

Above the sun,

Below the sun,

But never exchanged those 3 words;

I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue – High School 1st Year

Continuation...

Days passed by… Friends and time will heal anything and everything… m back on track…

I always had a passion for computers. I was always fascinated by its power and things it can do… :=)))

I was in my teens by then.

I went to a tutor for Mathematics as there’s more weightage for it in the entrance exams next year. My family felt that I need to have a better foundation in that.

First day, I met the tutor and he explained the whole process of his coaching. Too much on the first day.

I followed everything and he asked me for my marks in 10^th in front of all the other students.

I was embarrassed and don’t know if my marks were good enough to be revealed.

Our conversation was broken as a guy in his forties entered and called him aside for a minute. After 10 minutes a girl was ushered into the room by the middle aged man and the tutor.

She saw me standing and smiled at me. I was a dumb dork not to reply back. She shrugged and took the chair next to me.

The tutor entered and repeated the question once again.

I hesitantly replied him. 189/200. I hated myself for doing the graph wrong which had taken away 10 marks straight away from my score. I never felt bad before about this. But the timing now is wrong.

The teacher said, ‘Not bad. You could have scored 200/200 if concentrated better.’

She giggled. I told ‘I will do my best this year sir.’

He didn’t ask that question to any others, then why me???

He started taking lectures and it was so boring. I couldn’t concentrate on the lecture much.

She was busily doing something; she was not even raising her head towards the black board.

I was curious and peeped into her notebook.

She was drawing a face and busy in finishing the round spectacles for it.

Once she was done, she turned to me and said, ‘Don’t u look cute?’

I was puzzled. I replied, ‘What?’

She continued, ‘Your picture. I even got ur specs right.’

For one moment, I was transported to the dining room in my thoughts. My mom was trying to feed me carrot and I always used to leave carrots and eat the rest. I was back to the reality.

If I would have eaten it that time, she wouldn’t have drawn those specs.

She then started drawing something again and this time same round face but with smaller rectangular frameless specs unlike my brown rimmed big ones.

She then turned to me, ‘U should wear something like this, and it will suit u better.’

I told, ‘Concentrate on the lecture. If he finds us talking, we will end up solving more problems as assignments.’

She gave me a lifeless look and started doing something on here notebook and this time she was covering it from me.

Finally the class was over and we left.

I reached home, but I don’t know why I was not able to stop thinking about her.

Is it love at first sight??? Cut the crap…

Next day, she was wearing a yellow salwar and her white complexion matched it perfectly.

She saw me checking her out and said, ‘Are u done with the problems?’

I nodded. ‘Then give it to me fast. I need to copy it before he comes asking for it.’

I gave her the completed sheets. She copied them real fast and just in time.

After the class, I was getting my bicycle from the parking.

She stopped me and said, ‘Thanks. Can u walk with me? My dad is not coming to pick me today and its pretty boring to walk alone.’

I told, ‘Sure. Lets walk.’ and I started walking with her and my bicycle. All my tution mates started gossiping.

She started the conversation, ‘U must be the topper of ur class.’

I told her, ‘I wish to but m not. I never topped my class.’

She said, ‘How is that possible, u got 189 in Mathematics.’

‘I stood fifth in my class. The topper scored 194.’ I told.

‘oooh… must be a genius. U know I got only 89. Just managed to pass the exams.’ She told.

Now I understand why she giggled when I told my score. We spoke about our schools and friends for some more time and reached her house. After dropping her, I went home dragging my cycle with me and rewinding and playing our conversation again and again in my mind.

For the next few months, our routine continued, she copied my notes every other day and we walked back every other day.

First term results were out. I managed to get 95% in the first term.

She came into the room with a long face. I inquired. She said, ‘I flunked in Mathematics. How much did u get?’

I said,’95%. I would have surely given some of my marks to u if I could.’

She smiled and said, ‘I know. Can we do this mathematics together after tution at my home? Please…’

I didn’t know what to answer and said ‘Yes. We can help each other out.’

Her face brightened up and said, ‘It’s you who is gonna help me. Thanks.’

She told her parents and they agreed as it’s for her own good.

We did the second term together and the results were good. I dropped a bit, 90%, she managed 55%.

She skipped tuition; I went to meet her at her home. The house was locked.

Next day she came with a wide grin and said, ‘I got lots of new clothes. Dad took me for shopping.’

That moment, I decided I am going to ask my dad to buy me a video game. If 55% earns new clothes, 90% should be rewarded with something more.

She said, ’I have a gift for u too. Come home, I will give it to u.’

At her house, her parents greeted me and gave me some sweets. I didn’t know how to react.

I went to her room and she dragged me behind the door and kissed me. I was petrified. I don’t know how long we kissed, but for me it was a like hours.

She said, ‘This is ur gift. Did u like it?’

‘Next term, if u get 70%, will I get more?’ I asked. She blushed and disappeared.

Third term, she got 65% and I dropped to 85%. But that doesn’t matter. I was proud that she scored more this term.

I met her in the tuition the next day, ‘Do I get more gifts this time?’

‘Come and see it urself.’ She said.

Her parents were not there when we reached. She got the key out and opened the house for us.

My heart started pounding faster. My whole body was getting warm with the sudden high circulation of blood.

She got some sweets and asked me to open my mouth and close my eyes. I followed her instantly. After some time I could taste the sweet and could feel her soft lips on mine. My head started spinning and I was flying.

Suddenly, I could realize her move away swiftly and she stood in front of me her eyes wide open. I turned back and saw her parents staring at us. They didn’t talk. I left the house.

She discontinued from the tuition and I never dared to go to her house again. Even I discontinued the next day.

The final term got over and managed 88% in the end. Somehow I never allowed my emotions control me when it comes to grades.

I managed to get rectangular frameless specs as a gift from my parents and finally decided to go to her home and meet her.

Her dad was sitting in the living room reading the newspaper. I went and apologized for what had happened. He kept his cool and told me that she managed to get through this year and will be doing the next year from her granny’s place. I wanted to meet her one last time, but she was already shipped far away from me.

High School 1^st Year

The sun had risen,
The best gift in my life,
I was petrified, I was flying
Life came to a standstill
The lips departed,
The taste remains forever.
I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue – 10th Standard

Continuation...

I lost my ‘Just Best Friend’ after that…

The school had a policy, we have separate sections A an

d B in each class and the students with a certain grade go to the 10^th grade from both the sections.

So, it was time to make some new friends.

The board exams were at the end of the year and it decided our high school groups. So people had to put extra slogging to keep up with the syllabus.

Most of the days passed with the boring lectures and the free advice on our future.

I managed to get good grades and good grades come with lots of competition and u need to keep up ur consistency.

First term exam results were out and since both the sections were merged, people wanted to see their spot in the toppers list.

I was in the top 5 and only the top 3 would be felicitate

d at the end of the year.

I was never fascinated with the ranks, but wanted to repay my parents hardwork by making them proud at the year end celebrations when they call my name and felicitate.

The results were out and that was the first time that girl spoke to me.

She asked me for my term grades. I told her my grades. She frowned a little and said she fell short of 10 marks to catch up with me.

Though I was proud of myself for that moment, cajoled her saying there are many terms to end this year.

She was game for it and I could see the competition starting.

I never had a goal when it comes to grades and studies. I just give my best and move on with the results.

Now I have a reason to get some good grades I thought. She is not that bad looking and being the fact that she is not a localite and family root started from the northern part of India made her have a better complexion than others.

The second term was over and the results were due the next day.

I was with my friends joking around. She came over and wished me luck and went.

The second term results were out. The teachers started calling out grades for each of the 10 subjects we had in that year.

Usually I don’t really care about the other’s grades. I just pay attention when my grades were announced.

The grades were announced in the alphabetical order of our names.

My roll number comes before her. I noted my grades down and it was not bad.

The teacher called her name. My ears started listening and I started noting down her grades below mine in each subject. She was inching 5 marks more or less in each and finally in total she lead me by 5 marks in total.

A sudden feeling of defeat had mound in me and I felt pretty bad about my scores that moment. She turned back and smiled. Then I realized she was exactly doing what I was doing. I didn’t reply her smile back. Come on I lost and I wont be happy about that.

Many of my friends flunked. I always topped my gang. My gang is not so studious, it’s a mix of all and mostly fun loving and we keep ourselves away from the bookworms. Even my friends at times wonder how I manage good grades even though we all are together most of the time and don’t spend much time in studying.

After the school, she came to me told me, ‘You have two more terms left.’

At that moment, I wanted to challenge her and win her next time pretty badly. I hid my emotions and smiled back saying, ‘will see’.

Next term went good and this time I lead her by 50 marks and was proud of my victory. I even made it to the top 3.

She was still smiling and was happy about it. I was just wondering if it’s the same smile I had cast last time. But couldn’t doubt it as it was so genuine.

And the monsoon broke in my heart.

Next day I woke up early and came half an hour early to school. I was chatting with my buddies but constantly looking at the entrance. First bell rang and she was not there, the second bell rang and still she didn’t make it. She didn’t turn up to school that day.

It continued for 2 more days and the next day she was entering through the school gates, I could spot her easily amidst the last minute student rush as the gates would be closed in few seconds. I wanted to ask her whether she was upset on losing to me but kept quiet. She gave her medical certificate to the teacher and sat in her desk. She turned back and smiled. Her face looked pale. I inquired if she is ok through my gestures and she shook her head. I was relieved by that.

We had a free hour and our class was a bit noisy. The principal disciplined us by forming groups and sending each group to a different room with some tasks to complete.

And the lady luck was with me and we both were in the same group. We had to read a poem and give a test on that after that. Our group decided to read on their own and meet after 30 mins and see where we stand. I sat across her and we chose to go to the play ground as it would be calm and nice.

It was a bit breezy that day. I read two lines of the poem and looked up. She was sitting across me. A few strands couldn’t win the light breeze and were set loose. It was such a pleasant sight to watch. I couldn’t stop staring at her. After some time, she started curling her hair and started playing with it while memorizing the poem.

From that moment on, I was completely into her. I started to be with her more from that day on and even we did our studies together. I enjoyed each and every moment with her.

We know there is something happening between us, but we never were candid on that fact.

Our rest of the term went well, I was consistent in top 5 and she on the next spot.

We gave our final exams and were at the same spot in the end.

The results were out and I was pretty sure we would get to choose what we want to do in high school because of our good grades.

She came to me and she didn’t look so happy. She asked me what I am going to do. I like computers a lot and told her that. She encouraged it and even she wanted to do that. But her parents were forcing her to do medicine.

I felt a bit bad for her. But the next info really put me down. It was like a hole punched in my heart. She said, ‘My parents have decided to put me in a different school.’

The whole world froze for a second. I wanted to ask her a lot of questions, but kept quiet. She wanted me to write something on her slam book. There were many things going on in my mind. Should I tell her I love her, Should I tell her how much I will miss her.

I had her book in my hand but didn’t know how to proceed. I saw her face once again; there was thousand meanings to our expressions.

Finally I asked her, ‘Will u be in touch with me even after going to ur new school?’

She just said, ‘I will miss u a lot.’ Her eyes were a bit moist, she ran away out of my sight.

Later I came to know that, actually her father was transferred to a different city and she is leaving town that night.

10th Standard

The breeze has done the trick,
The monsoon is broken in my heart,
Her smiles, her images filled all the space
All the other things except her was blurred
When she was around,
The time for the next has come.
The lady love was not happy with it.
I will miss her.
I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..