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Lovelogue – Engineering 3rd Year

2010-03-22T07:27:00.005+05:30

Continuation...

It was a great summer break. We met almost everyday and time seemed to fly. The next year started in no time and was back to the hostel. The first day in hostel, all guys just killed time pulling each other and talking about our summer break. All my friends were curious to know what is going on between me and the junior girl.

It was bed time already and still all my friends insisted on hearing my story. I got strangely excited and started telling the story. I started with the kiss in the coffee shop and then the train to home. I added on with the bus trip we took to Mahabalipuram.

I convinced her in going to Mahabalipuram during our holidays. We got into the bus and caught the corner last seat of the bus. She was a bit nervous as she was scared about us being caught red handed. I assured her several times and the bus left the city after 30 minutes and she relaxed a bit. We were not talking for a long time and staring at the snoring passenger before us without interest. Both of us were waiting for the first move.

The bus curved to the left and even though it was not so steep, I tilted to my left and our hands met. That charged us up real quick with the love current being flowing so strong. She moved her hand a bit more to touch mine and I was trying to do the same. My heart started pumping more blood than necessary. Why does it feel like the first time always? She rested her head on my shoulder holding my hand tight and closed her eyes. The conductor gave me some odd looks. I nudged those anyways.

I had seen Mahabalipuram so many times that I can make a good guide for the tourists. I took her around all the rocks and the sculptures. I don’t know what I am doing analyzing each and every sculptor out there. I took her to the shore temple and it was a sunny day, so not many heads on the beach and the shore temple was almost empty. We had to cross a dark passage to get to the shore temple. In mid way, I turned towards her and our lips met in a flash. We made sure no one is watching and the kiss started like a wild fire. I could see her eyes closed and cheeks turning pink.

My friends started howling on this. I was so lost in my story telling, I took my mobile to check the time. My jaws dropped seeing the mobile. I had speed dial settings set and somehow call went to the wrong person at the wrong time. Ya I know it’s the worst nightmare anyone would ever thought of and hoping for waking up but couldn’t beat the reality. I checked on how long the call was on and soon realized it’s long enough. A sudden feeling of guilt passed through and in a meek voice answered her.

‘Hello.’ I squeaked

‘Don’t you have any value for our relationship? It’s all a joke for u.’ She fired.

‘I…….’

‘I know what you are unto now. I don’t want to talk to you anymore.’

‘But wait. It was jus a …….’ I tried to justify but couldn’t come up with right words.

‘It was just a what? I know what it is; you never loved me at all. I was just imagining foolishly all this time. I have learnt my lesson. I am done with you.’ She started sobbing.

‘I can explain. Meet me in the department lab tomorrow.’ I pleaded.

She started sobbing heavily and the phone went dead. That is when I hated the technology for growing up so fast.

I saw her in the department next day talking to her friends. I could see her long face and felt really bad for what had happened. Her friend gave me an unfriendly look, came to me and said,

‘She won’t be talking to you anymore…..’ She continued talking things which I didn’t want to hear and my eyes were fixed on her all the time. She started sobbing again with her friends trying to console her giving me unfriendly looks.

I turned my gaze to her friend, ‘Tell her, I will miss her a lot.’ And turned and left the department.

I couldn’t forget her and repented for what ever happened that day and wished I had a time machine to go back and set things right. But it was too late even for the time machine to take me back. It’s over…

The timing was right. Our class tour to Kanyakumari and Kerala was organized. Last year we went on a one day trip to Ooty. This time it was a two days trip and all were pretty excited about it.

We decided to travel in the night and reach Kanyakumari in the early hours to catch the sunrise.

We didn’t sleep the whole travel and our chatting and singing sessions were going on.

At around 4 ‘O clock every one slept and my phone vibrated. I thought its some spam text message and ignored it.

After 2 mins, my mobile vibrated again. This time I checked the messages. It was from an unknown number and the first message said ‘I LUV U’.

I opened the next message; it said ‘Hey sleepy head… I said I LUV U’.

I checked the bus and found everyone sleeping and then I thought it’s a prank set by one of my friend and ignored the messages.

We freshened up and went to check out the sunrise and as usual it was a cloudy day and all we could do is to take some pics and get back.

I usually never carry a camera as I like being in front of it rather than behind it taking the pictures.

We had split in batches and started exploring the shore. We were posing so intensely and I sensed a flash from the other side and turned to find nobody there.

We continued our trip most of the time traveling as we wanted to cover larger ground. Our lunch timing passed and finally located a kerala restaurant. It was a bad restaurant with all the broken chairs and tables. He served us some fat rice and watery juice and curry. We had no other option than eating them. While eating my mobile vibrated again. I continued eating ignoring it and my mobile vibrated atleast 3 – 4 times after that. I went to wash my hands and checked my mobile.

There were 6 messages from the Z. I had stored the unknown number as Z.

1^st Message: ‘Hey don’t eat this food.’

2^nd Message: ‘The food is bad. Please don’t eat.’

3^rd Message: ’U are so hungry?’

4^th Message: ‘U eat how much ever u want. Hogger!!!’

5^th Message: ‘Finally U gave up. :=)))’

6^th Message: ‘I LUV U’

I turned and checked all the tables to find my whole class eating their lunch and couldn’t find a girl with a mobile. I didn’t want to fall for this prank and deleted all the messages.

We had reserved some hotel rooms and it was past midnight by the time we reached. All of us slumped on the bed by the time we reached.

We were 5-6 guys sleeping on a double bed. Nobody had the patience to go to their rooms and slumped on the same bed. It’s our hostel attitude, won’t go that easily. :=)))

The hotel intercom started buzzing at around 5 ‘O clock. I was sleeping close to it and it was ringing in my ears. I took the phone and struggled and said,

‘Heeeeelllllooooooo’

‘Hey sleepy head… wake up…’ the voice said

I woke up in a shock and asked, ’who is this? Whom do u want?’

I could hear her smiling, ‘what do u think, I can’t recognize ur voice? I am talking to the right person.’

I was pretty much sure by now that someone in this room wants to make a fool out of me taking help of our class girls.

Sudden adrenaline pumped up and I said, ‘Don’t u have any other better job to do? I wont fall for all these pranks.’ and slashed the receiver.

I was pretty much impressed with me not falling for this prank.

I woke up in the morning and checked my mobile and there were no messages and confirmed that the prank is all over.

After a week, on my way to our college mess, my mobile vibrated.

I checked the mobile and it was from Z

It said, ‘Hey. I am not a prankster. I was not fooling around. I like u very much. I like whatever u do. I have been trying to tell this for a long time. I LUV U.’

Knowing all my friends, I know they don’t give up that easily. I sent the message to trash.

I decided I will ask all my friends to find out whose number is it.

None of my friends had that number stored in their mobile.

Even though I was pretty sure it was a prank, somewhere something is not falling into its place.

After two days, I got another message from Z

It said, ‘Hi… What r u doin???’

I called back and she was disconnecting.

I tried two or three more times and every time it was rejected.

My mobile vibrated. ‘Hey. Y r u in such a hurry? U reply to my messages first.’

I replied back. ‘who r u? What do u want?’

‘UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU’ was the reply.

Even though it was a bit irritating, I started liking it.

She started texting me regularly… My mobile started craving for more battery charge… :=)))

It continued for a long time. Thanks for the service providers who had this students pack with unlimited texting free. My dad would have gone bankrupt paying the bills. :=)))

Valentine’s Day came at the right time. We decided we will meet at the botanical garden next to our college. Our friends don’t prefer that place and we could get some privacy. It’s been a month since I went home and no laundry was done for a long time. I went to my next room and picked up a decently clean shirt and walked out. One of my friends met me in the middle and asked me to join for a coffee. I didn’t want to tell him where I was going and thought I would leave soon.

My mobile vibrated and the message said, ‘what r u doing in the coffee shop? Didn’t we agree on a plan?’

I searched to see if I can catch her on the road, but it’s a bit difficult to sort out.

I cooked up some story to my friend and left the coffee place and after gaining a good distance, I literally started running.

I entered the botanical garden and tried to call her. She was rejecting my calls. It was agreed the previous day that she would be wearing a white churidar and free flowing hair. There were some serious joggers and oldies in the park and started searching every nook and corner. My mobile vibrated and it said, ‘Turn Back’

I stood there petrified seeing her. A flash reel of all the incidents crossed my mind. The first message I got in the trip to Kanyakumar, she was sitting in the same row on the other side. In the kerala restaurant she was sitting right next to me in the same table, I was so busy in eating that I didn’t even look around. She crossed me and went when I settled in the hotel room during our trip and she would have noted the room number and called me. All the missing pieces were falling into place. I started loving the technology again. The mobile phone which was responsible for my split now found me an angel.

We have been together all this time, but I never realized she is the one.

She looked like a fairy without the magic wand and the transparent wings.

She shook me and asked, ‘what happened? U didn’t expect me?’

‘I…. I d..i..d..n…t……’ was all I could say.

She started talking about when she first met me and when all this started and stuffs like that. But all this time I was just looking at her and the time flew as if we deported to a different time zone. She checked the time and she was already running late on the hostel closing time for girls. She said she will call me and ran away. I was still sitting there on the bench letting the realization to sink in.

She came back and whispered in my ears, ‘I LUV U’ and ran towards the exit giggling.

I stood up and started punching in the air and jumping and later realized that I was getting a lot of attention because of my crazy act.

I walked back to the hostel room and she called me.

Days became seconds and soon our semester exams were around. Before even we could think of, the year got over and our placement preparations started. The whole third year stayed back to prepare for the placements as the companies will be around for recruitment in a month.

Engineering 3^rd Year

I hate the mobile phones

It was not intentional

They are my friends

I was just sharing our nice moments.

Please understand.

I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

I love the mobile phones

It vibrates with my heart beat

The fairy is released

She was always there and I didn’t realize

I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue – Engineering 2nd Year

2010-01-25T05:32:00.006+05:30

Continuation...

My college reopened and the first news I get is that she got transferred to some other college.

The college roads look deserted. Whenever I pass the chemistry lab, I could feel the scent of her. My mind plays a small recap. The first day I met her in the auditorium filling the admission forms. our first experiment together. our lab sessions together. our kiss in the store room. I could feel it till now. Then the truth caves in.

Our second year was going good. After all those ragging sessions we had, we can now rag the fresher. It was not official though, but we rag our juniors before getting them into our department. I was the General Secretary of my department. The tradition is to arrange an ice breaking session with our juniors’ offsite. All the arrangements were done. We seniors reached a bit early than the juniors. Juniors came in and everybody started calling them and ragging in groups. One girl caught my eyes though; she was all scared and kept her head down most of the time. I was interrupted by some of my friends and continued with the rest of the party.

After a while, I checked her again and I saw her crying standing in a corner. I went to appease her. She started sobbing more when I got there and caught everyone’s attention. Everyone thought I made her cry and started accusing me. She was so busy in crying to even bail me out. I became the bad guy of the evening.

Weeks passed, it was first cycle test last day. Cycle tests contribute to 20% of our final score. It’s such a relief after the exams. We guys went to the coffee shop, where we spend more time than our class rooms to chill out. The coffee shop is right in front of the girls’ hostel entrance and may be that’s why the business was always on all time high there. I saw her coming out of the hostel, she saw me and smiled. But the devil in me made me to take a stand with a grumpy face. She frowned and passed. The next day after class, as usual we were chilling out in the coffee shop. I saw her coming out and she smiled and me with a poker face. This continued for some days. She didn’t give up smiling and I didn’t give up my poker face.

On a weekend, I overslept and I found all my friends already left for a movie. I had no other place to go other than the coffee shop. I saw her coming out of the hostel again. How does she come out exactly when I hit the coffee shop? It was 12 noon and the coffee shop was pretty much deserted. She started walking towards the coffee shop. I don’t know why but my heart skipped some beats. She didn’t smile this time, she just passed me and went to order a coffee. She got her coffee and sat across me facing me on the other table. This time I smiled and she was having a poker face. I didn’t know if I should go and talk to her or hold my stance. She kept starting at me, her eyes talking a thousand but couldn’t understand what she was thinking though. Enough is enough; I stood and walked towards her. Her friends flocked her and I had to forcibly leave the place. I could see her eyes following me when I passed.

I was waiting for the next weekend and the days started to stretch. I faked as if I am sleeping to make sure my friends leave to make my move. I had to pretend sleeping for a long time than usual till everyone is out. I rushed to the coffee shop and found her with her friend in the shop. I got my coffee and a magazine and sat across her meeting her eyes. I could see her eyes lit up. AR Rehman’s melodious track was just setting the perfect ambience. She told her friend something, she turned and giggled and left. I was pretending reading the magazine. I saw her walking towards me.

She said, ‘Would you buy me a coffee?’

In the rush I forgot to get my wallet. I had to convince the owner to get a coffee.

I came with the coffee in my hand and saw her drinking coffee from my cup. She smiled and said,

‘This tastes better.’

I replied back with a stupid smile and started sipping the hot coffee without even realizing that it was burning my lips and tongue.

‘How are you?’ I asked.

‘Good.’ She continued. ‘Why are u avoiding me?’

‘No. I was not avoiding u. I never noticed u in the first place.’ I answered.

‘U are scared of me?’ she said. That was enough to instigate me.

‘Look. U made a scene that day in the freshers’ party. I came to help u and u made me look like a monster in front of the whole department.’ I poured out. I opened my mouth to continue but in a flash I felt something soft on my lips. My burnt lips with the hot coffee started to heal magically. It was a quick one though. I saw the coffee shop owner shocked. She ran out of the shop giggling. I sat there till the realization sink in. I left the coffee shop and I felt like flying back to my room light like a feather.

The time was flying away. Days passed like seconds and in no time our year end exams were around the corner. 20 days of day and night slogging and we are through.

We are both from the same city. So, decided to take a train for the year end vacation. Since we didn’t plan it well enough, we ended up traveling in a general compartment. The train was so crowded. A bunch of my college mates had booked some seats for them. We all adjusted in those seats. Everyone kept on talking about something or the other. The time started flying and nobody was sleeping. This is not what I had planned. She was sitting next to me and she slept on my shoulder. The sleep bug spread and soon the whole compartment was snoring. As soon as the lights were off, she grabbed my arm tightly and moved. I could see her pretty face bright and clear in the dark. She winked at me and smiled. She moved forward and her eyes closed. I know what to do next. I reached and kissed her on her lips. The 8 hours journey was over in 8 minutes.

Engineering 2^nd Year

The coffee shop

Her kiss is sugar

The caffeine is love.

Yeah. It’s the love express.

I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue – Engineering 1st Year

2010-01-16T09:02:00.006+05:30

Continuation...

The engineering admissions took a bit more time to start. As any other guy who wants to do engineering would do, I applied for the colleges and waited for the call letter. It’s already been 1 month for her in the college.

I still remember the first day she called me and told me about the ragging in her college. Her college seniors asked if anyone had any boy friends. She said she told them that she has a boy friend. I asked her, ‘who is that?’ She said, ‘Who else? You!!! You have a problem with that?’ The usual romantic background score started playing in my mind. Then she said, ‘I didn’t want to say I don’t have anyone and get embarrassed in front of everyone.’

I was still hearing some background score, but this time it’s the funeral number, and what is being buried is my heart.

She called me the week after and told me about all her new friends and she even told them about our encounters and she said they felt pretty cool about it. I sighed and continued listening to all her short stories on only one topic, college.

Finally, the day had come to decide my next four years. I gave it a little thought. My brothers were busy in finding out about each and every college available and choosing what is best for me. I wanted to see how the world looks like away from home. The omen was good and I could choose a college away from home.

Soon, the word spread and everybody came to know, I am going to a different city to do my studies. All my friends inquired on why I am taking it in a different city. I just made a lame excuse that the college is good and wanted to do it there. I didn’t hear from her for a long time and the day I was leaving she called me.

I answered, ‘Hey. How are you?’

Between sobs she said, ‘I am fine. Why are you going away from me?’

I didn’t know what to say but said, ‘Miss u…’ and the line went dead.

I reached my college on my joining date 14^th July 2002. My parents were not allowed inside the auditorium and I was finishing my joining formalities. I had to wait my turn as there were many students doing the formalities before me. On the other side of the table, there was a girl sitting and looked all nervous. The hormones in me started its reactions. I wished the lady luck to put her in computer science department.

She went to meet a bespectacled office staff who was verifying the students certificates. I could hear her conversation clearly but all I could hear was ‘Computer Science’ I thanked the lady luck.

First day away from home. I thought I was strong, but couldn’t hold back my tears seeing my Mom and Dad leaving me in the strange place. I had asked for it and I know how to deal with it.

I had to share my room with two other guys. I came there first, I saw a shelf locked and was wondering who the smart guy is who reserved his shelf already even before getting his things.

I met my other room mate in some time. We introduced ourselves. We started arranging things and he took me to another room where he had one of his school mates. We all were excited about our first day. The hostel room walls were scribbled everywhere. The seniors had left some knowledge on the bad words and the slangs used in the college. We read all these new terms hard than our subjects. Another guy joined us, and through him, we met another one, and he happened to be from my department. Soon our network expanded with some more additions.

First day of college, though ragging was not allowed, we heard enough stories about it already. I was in the class a bit early. I took the third row on the left side; I found some bags on the first and second desk. More guys started coming in and they started filling the seats. The girl I saw in the auditorium came in and took her bag and moved to the other desk where all the other girls started filling in. I sat next to the guy I met the day before in hostel and we started ranking girls one by one as they entered.

We started counting the number of good girls in our class and being scared of ending up with no count, we relaxed our expectations a bit. We were so desperate that we started counting out loud and we could hear someone else is syncing with us in counting. And from then on, those three guys joined our club.

After the class, we went back to our hostel and started discussing about girls in each department. Soon we started making a list of top ten from each class.

The days rolled on with more fun and time was spent most of the time in chatting and playing cards. Soon we even christened our gang and were enjoying each and every moment of our college life.

I didn’t get a chance to meet this girl until one day in the chemistry class, her instruments were not working and the instructor had directed her to me to the experiment. I was excited on what experiment I am going to do. I had to use the pipette to suck some acid for testing and was doing it. She was standing beside me and observing what I was doing. I did it more meticulously to impress her. After taking my readings, I passed her the pipette and the other chemicals. I sucked the pipette and didn’t rinse it. I expected her to rinse it before using it. She started sucking the chemical and the challenge is to stop it right exactly at a mark She was struggling to get the chemical sucked in exactly unto the mark.

She looked at me and smiled sheepishly, and attempted couple of times more and couldn’t get it.

This time she looked at me and said, ‘Can u help me with this?’

I grabbed it from her and was not sure whether I should rinse the pipette before using it as out of anxiety she was literally sucking on the pipette for a long time.

I saw her and she smiled. I then started sucking the pipette and both the chemicals in me and the pipette started rising.

The two hours session went in a jiffy. We took all the readings together and she promised to meet me tomorrow to check the calculations. I skipped dinner that day.

Next day she looked so bright and dashing in her yellow salwar. She came to me and apologized for not doing the calculations. I hid the calculations I had done and we started doing the calculations together. She was so engrossed in the calculations and I in her.

The next lab session, her instruments were fixed and I cursed the institution for being so dutiful. She looked at me and went to the instructor and spoke to him and he gave a couple of glance and nodded. She turned smiling at me and came to me and said, ‘Can I do the experiment with u?’ I kept nodding for five minutes and this time some heads turned towards us.

Soon chemistry made to the top of my favorite subjects.

I used to hate the fact that there are only two sessions in a week allocated for chemistry lab. The weeks used to drag but the lab sessions used to be short.

From that day onwards, we started doing our lab sessions together.

The exams were round the corner. She asked me to meet her in the temple.

I was on top of the world that day. I started imagining all sort of things on our meeting that day. I had changed into fresh pressed clothes and changed, don’t know how many times. I reached the temple; she was waiting for me outside. She smiled and we both went in. She closed her eyes and was praying for a long time. After we finished our prayers, I inquired on why she called me.

She said, ‘Should there be a reason to see u???’

The background score started playing loud now. The bells ringing started ringing deep in my heart.

She continued, ‘My parents are trying to get me into one of the colleges in my city itself.’

The romantic bells changed its tone and sounded like the funeral bells.

‘I was praying God that I shouldn’t get admission in any of the colleges in my city.’ She winked at me. ‘Will you pray for me?’

I was so dumbstruck that I was just nodding my head.

Final lab exams were going on. I was walking to my desk passing the store room. Suddenly a hand from the store room pulled me into the room. It was her in her lab coat with a mischievous smile.

She asked me, ‘Got scared?’

‘What are you doing? Our Exams are going on.’ She came to the store room making an excuse to get the test tube.

She put her finger on my lips and leaned towards me and kissed on my forehead. The chemicals inside me started boiling. I pulled her close to me and my lips felt her soft lips. I was getting better in art of kissing.

We heard someone opening the door. By the time it was fully open; we had some test tubes in our hands and went out.

Finally, our first year exams were over and everybody packed the bags heading home for the vacation.

I met her in the train station. We didn’t speak for most of our time together. I pulled out a gift wrapped packet out of my pocket. She was surprised and opened her eyes were all wet. She hugged me tight and I could feel my shoulders getting wet. I had flicked the pipette we had shared the first day of our Chemistry lab and gifted it to her.

The train started moving and I had to force her to get into the train. The train gained pace and even my legs started gaining pace after it. She gleamed through the window and all I could see were her wet eyes trying to say something and the train disappeared into the dark.

Engineering 1^st Year

The chemicals started reacting,

The week was long,

The lab sessions were short,

She passed the test tube,

I touched her soft fingers,

The electrons were exchanged.

I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue – High School Final Year

2010-01-07T09:33:00.006+05:30

Continuation...

Final year started with lots of threats. I started getting free advice from everyone I met. All my classmates already started allotting slots for the whole year on finishing the subjects and giving mock exams. I don’t know why people make such long schedule which is hard to keep up in the first place.

In our class there was a fashion of tagging each girl and boy; least bothered if they like it or not. We even had some severe boring counseling sessions with the staff several times for this behavior. All the juniors were scared to step into our class. Leave alone students, the staff who handle primary and secondary classes seldom visited our class. We were gaining reputation. The whole school hated us, but who cares.

I was not tagged to anyone for a long time. There was this girl who used to sit in a corner and my friends always tried to make progress towards her. I never noticed her all these days for what ever reasons. Most of her friends were opted out of science and were doing arts. She was kind of left alone.

We play a lot of pranks. I used to pretty cautious all the time, but one noon after lunch. Everyone rose to greet the teacher who started his session. One of my friends from behind laid the soiled paper wrap in which he had packed pooris for lunch on my seat. I didn’t notice and sat on the whole thing and didn’t realize for the whole session and everyone started laughing out loud as the session was over and the teacher was out. I rose to thank the teacher and the wrap was stuck on my butt. I stood there embarrassed for a some time and started chasing all those guys who sat behind me.

But the damage was already done. It got dried and made some yellow batches on my pant and the news had spread so much that the whole class started noticing that. I was so embarrassed and had to spend 3 hours in the restroom trying to clean it and drying it.

Out of all those laughs, I could clearly distinguish this laugh. I saw her eye to eye giving me ‘poor baby’ look and laughing.

Her eyes were close to tears because of laughing and her eyes went as small as her jaw bones were exercising a lot lately. She had a button nose and wide lips perfectly split to show her white glistening teeth. Am I exaggerating… Doesn’t matter though… :=)))

She started smiling at me from then on when ever she saw me after that. I got so impatient and confronted her once. She said I didn’t smile at you and bent a little to check my butt and smiled again. That’s it… I couldn’t take it anymore.

I said, ‘Be ready to shed tears in sometime soon.’ and left from there.

This prank has caught up like wildfire and everyone started saving their lunch wraps and sent a guy to the restroom daily. I did the same the thing to the guy who did that to me though.

Girls in our class were never game to all these silly pranks. But the day had come when her friends had planned to do the same to her.

The first session after lunch was over and the guy next to me passed the soiled wrap to the girls’ side. I was just seeing what was happening, but was not that interested in whatever was going on. The guy next to me whispered, your girl is going to get it today.

I didn’t understand. I was still trying to figure out who my girl is. I saw her friends trapping her. She was standing and discussing something pretty animatedly to the girls before her. The chance was utilized and the trap was laid perfectly. Initially I was appreciating the act and slowly my focus felt on her lips. I don’t know why but I couldn’t take my eyes off her lips.

She was almost done and was about to sit. I decided, I would never allow this to happen to her and all of a sudden I screamed her name at the top of my voice. The whole class came to a stand still and it was so silent like a prayer hall and everybody eyes fixed on me. She turned and noticed the wrap on her seat. She cursed her friends and threw it in the trash. She looked at me and my eyes were transfixed on her lips and I could see them beautifully splitting into a smile at me. I could hear a romantic song in the background.

It was soon interrupted by the dirty and murderous glances from all my other classmates. I broke the code. I broke the code of pranksters. There is no way to escape this. Luckily the teacher entered for starting the next session.

After the school was over, she caught me on my way back to home and asked me why I helped her.

I said, ‘I don’t know.’

She replied, ‘Friends?’ I nodded and left controlling all the excitement inside.

Next day, she entered the class and the whole class started repeating my name. Even though I liked it, I acted as if I am protesting against it and was waiting for her reaction. She blushed and went and sat in her seat. I felt like a feather being caressed by a nice cold breeze.

From that day on, the same story continued. I pseudo protested and she blushed.

Friends are the best matchmakers in the world.

In the English class, I was so lost and was day dreaming about her. The teacher got so irritated and asked me to explain the class whatever I followed till now on Oliver Twist. I had finished this story sometime back as I like reading stories a lot.

Everybody was listening and the teacher started cursing me and started forecasting my future, but my only goal was to impress her. I gathered all the courage and started explaining about Oliver Twist. I spoke non stop for 30 mins and finally finished it. Some of my friends had a good nap in the meantime. But suddenly, one guy started clapping and it had caught up and even my friends in sleep woke up and started clapping mostly not knowing what is happening around.

It was foolish of me to think she would be impressed by a 30 min long speech. She was among the sleeping beauties in the class. She acted as if she was following everything.

After the session, she said, ‘U rocked today.’

I replied. ‘U slept today.’

She said,’No. I was so lost into thoughts about us.’ She blushed and went and joined her friends.

I stood there petrified transforming into a feather once again. Suddenly I felt a strong smack on my butt, I turned, and my principal was standing with a whip. He asked me to stop day dreaming and get back into my seat.

I repeated those lines a100 times/minute in my mind.

The principal was explaining about great minds and encouraging us to become scientists. The whole class was quite and I completely in boozeworld (other name for heaven).. :=)))

Suddenly, the principal asked the class, ‘Name some female scientists?’

Before anyone could answer, I told her name loud enough for the whole class and the principal to stare at me. I was mentally prepared for a blasting, but luckily there was a scientist in that name and he started praising me for telling such a unique name and the whole class burst into laughter. Except the principal everybody else in the room knew the reason…

One day, we decided to go out for a walk together. I went home changed into the trendy neat clothes I could find and she was wearing a white shirt and knee length skirt. I couldn’t help myself staring at her legs. Till we crossed the territory we know, I walked 100 meters following her. Then she started slowing her pace and I increased mutually. In no time, we started walking together in the unknown lands.

It was a deserted path and suddenly a black cat crossed in front of us and she grabbed my hand in reflex. I thanked that cat 100 times and she maintained the grip for the rest of our walk. I could bet, I would have easily popped a thermometer as my body was so hot and now I started understanding about all the chemical reactions better. We spoke about anything under, over and around the sun and time flew just in a flash.

We started taking such strolls in regular intervals.

One of my friends parents were leaving town and I bribed him saying I will help him in the exams to get his house key. I convinced her to come over as we couldn’t be free enough on the roads. She told me that she will be there only for 10 mins and agreed to come.

Everything was set and she was sitting next to me in the couch. I switched on the TV and was browsing through all the channels and was constantly changing it. She inquired what I am searching for. I didn’t answer and continued flipping through the channels.

Then she said, ‘Are u looking for porn?’ I dropped the remote from my hand and was dumbstruck.

She started laughing losing control. Like Arjuna in Mahabaratha who saw only the bird he was aiming at, I could see only her lips. And in a swift motion, I caught her in my arms and started kissing her on her lips. She showed a mock resistance in the beginning and relaxed after some time. I opened my eyes and saw her eyes tightly shut. We gave a break for water and finished one bottle each catching up breath. This time it was her turn, she pushed me on the floor and the next session started then.

After having a couple of sessions more, it was time for her to leave. I went home and didn’t eat or drink or touch my lips and was feeling quite high on 4 shots of kisses. This secret ingredient is pretty powerful.

Our good times continued till the end of the year with more adventures.

We gave our final exams; I managed to get an engineering seat. She joined arts............

High School Final Year

I was a clown,

I was her savior,

I could feel the chemical reactions.

The time is up to see the results,

We spoke anything,

Above the sun,

Below the sun,

But never exchanged those 3 words;

I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue – High School 1st Year

2010-01-03T12:06:00.006+05:30

Continuation...

Days passed by… Friends and time will heal anything and everything… m back on track…

I always had a passion for computers. I was always fascinated by its power and things it can do… :=)))

I was in my teens by then.

I went to a tutor for Mathematics as there’s more weightage for it in the entrance exams next year. My family felt that I need to have a better foundation in that.

First day, I met the tutor and he explained the whole process of his coaching. Too much on the first day.

I followed everything and he asked me for my marks in 10^th in front of all the other students.

I was embarrassed and don’t know if my marks were good enough to be revealed.

Our conversation was broken as a guy in his forties entered and called him aside for a minute. After 10 minutes a girl was ushered into the room by the middle aged man and the tutor.

She saw me standing and smiled at me. I was a dumb dork not to reply back. She shrugged and took the chair next to me.

The tutor entered and repeated the question once again.

I hesitantly replied him. 189/200. I hated myself for doing the graph wrong which had taken away 10 marks straight away from my score. I never felt bad before about this. But the timing now is wrong.

The teacher said, ‘Not bad. You could have scored 200/200 if concentrated better.’

She giggled. I told ‘I will do my best this year sir.’

He didn’t ask that question to any others, then why me???

He started taking lectures and it was so boring. I couldn’t concentrate on the lecture much.

She was busily doing something; she was not even raising her head towards the black board.

I was curious and peeped into her notebook.

She was drawing a face and busy in finishing the round spectacles for it.

Once she was done, she turned to me and said, ‘Don’t u look cute?’

I was puzzled. I replied, ‘What?’

She continued, ‘Your picture. I even got ur specs right.’

For one moment, I was transported to the dining room in my thoughts. My mom was trying to feed me carrot and I always used to leave carrots and eat the rest. I was back to the reality.

If I would have eaten it that time, she wouldn’t have drawn those specs.

She then started drawing something again and this time same round face but with smaller rectangular frameless specs unlike my brown rimmed big ones.

She then turned to me, ‘U should wear something like this, and it will suit u better.’

I told, ‘Concentrate on the lecture. If he finds us talking, we will end up solving more problems as assignments.’

She gave me a lifeless look and started doing something on here notebook and this time she was covering it from me.

Finally the class was over and we left.

I reached home, but I don’t know why I was not able to stop thinking about her.

Is it love at first sight??? Cut the crap…

Next day, she was wearing a yellow salwar and her white complexion matched it perfectly.

She saw me checking her out and said, ‘Are u done with the problems?’

I nodded. ‘Then give it to me fast. I need to copy it before he comes asking for it.’

I gave her the completed sheets. She copied them real fast and just in time.

After the class, I was getting my bicycle from the parking.

She stopped me and said, ‘Thanks. Can u walk with me? My dad is not coming to pick me today and its pretty boring to walk alone.’

I told, ‘Sure. Lets walk.’ and I started walking with her and my bicycle. All my tution mates started gossiping.

She started the conversation, ‘U must be the topper of ur class.’

I told her, ‘I wish to but m not. I never topped my class.’

She said, ‘How is that possible, u got 189 in Mathematics.’

‘I stood fifth in my class. The topper scored 194.’ I told.

‘oooh… must be a genius. U know I got only 89. Just managed to pass the exams.’ She told.

Now I understand why she giggled when I told my score. We spoke about our schools and friends for some more time and reached her house. After dropping her, I went home dragging my cycle with me and rewinding and playing our conversation again and again in my mind.

For the next few months, our routine continued, she copied my notes every other day and we walked back every other day.

First term results were out. I managed to get 95% in the first term.

She came into the room with a long face. I inquired. She said, ‘I flunked in Mathematics. How much did u get?’

I said,’95%. I would have surely given some of my marks to u if I could.’

She smiled and said, ‘I know. Can we do this mathematics together after tution at my home? Please…’

I didn’t know what to answer and said ‘Yes. We can help each other out.’

Her face brightened up and said, ‘It’s you who is gonna help me. Thanks.’

She told her parents and they agreed as it’s for her own good.

We did the second term together and the results were good. I dropped a bit, 90%, she managed 55%.

She skipped tuition; I went to meet her at her home. The house was locked.

Next day she came with a wide grin and said, ‘I got lots of new clothes. Dad took me for shopping.’

That moment, I decided I am going to ask my dad to buy me a video game. If 55% earns new clothes, 90% should be rewarded with something more.

She said, ’I have a gift for u too. Come home, I will give it to u.’

At her house, her parents greeted me and gave me some sweets. I didn’t know how to react.

I went to her room and she dragged me behind the door and kissed me. I was petrified. I don’t know how long we kissed, but for me it was a like hours.

She said, ‘This is ur gift. Did u like it?’

‘Next term, if u get 70%, will I get more?’ I asked. She blushed and disappeared.

Third term, she got 65% and I dropped to 85%. But that doesn’t matter. I was proud that she scored more this term.

I met her in the tuition the next day, ‘Do I get more gifts this time?’

‘Come and see it urself.’ She said.

Her parents were not there when we reached. She got the key out and opened the house for us.

My heart started pounding faster. My whole body was getting warm with the sudden high circulation of blood.

She got some sweets and asked me to open my mouth and close my eyes. I followed her instantly. After some time I could taste the sweet and could feel her soft lips on mine. My head started spinning and I was flying.

Suddenly, I could realize her move away swiftly and she stood in front of me her eyes wide open. I turned back and saw her parents staring at us. They didn’t talk. I left the house.

She discontinued from the tuition and I never dared to go to her house again. Even I discontinued the next day.

The final term got over and managed 88% in the end. Somehow I never allowed my emotions control me when it comes to grades.

I managed to get rectangular frameless specs as a gift from my parents and finally decided to go to her home and meet her.

Her dad was sitting in the living room reading the newspaper. I went and apologized for what had happened. He kept his cool and told me that she managed to get through this year and will be doing the next year from her granny’s place. I wanted to meet her one last time, but she was already shipped far away from me.

High School 1^st Year

The sun had risen,
The best gift in my life,
I was petrified, I was flying
Life came to a standstill
The lips departed,
The taste remains forever.
I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue – 10th Standard

2010-01-03T05:25:00.006+05:30

Continuation...

I lost my ‘Just Best Friend’ after that…

The school had a policy, we have separate sections A an

d B in each class and the students with a certain grade go to the 10^th grade from both the sections.

So, it was time to make some new friends.

The board exams were at the end of the year and it decided our high school groups. So people had to put extra slogging to keep up with the syllabus.

Most of the days passed with the boring lectures and the free advice on our future.

I managed to get good grades and good grades come with lots of competition and u need to keep up ur consistency.

First term exam results were out and since both the sections were merged, people wanted to see their spot in the toppers list.

I was in the top 5 and only the top 3 would be felicitate

d at the end of the year.

I was never fascinated with the ranks, but wanted to repay my parents hardwork by making them proud at the year end celebrations when they call my name and felicitate.

The results were out and that was the first time that girl spoke to me.

She asked me for my term grades. I told her my grades. She frowned a little and said she fell short of 10 marks to catch up with me.

Though I was proud of myself for that moment, cajoled her saying there are many terms to end this year.

She was game for it and I could see the competition starting.

I never had a goal when it comes to grades and studies. I just give my best and move on with the results.

Now I have a reason to get some good grades I thought. She is not that bad looking and being the fact that she is not a localite and family root started from the northern part of India made her have a better complexion than others.

The second term was over and the results were due the next day.

I was with my friends joking around. She came over and wished me luck and went.

The second term results were out. The teachers started calling out grades for each of the 10 subjects we had in that year.

Usually I don’t really care about the other’s grades. I just pay attention when my grades were announced.

The grades were announced in the alphabetical order of our names.

My roll number comes before her. I noted my grades down and it was not bad.

The teacher called her name. My ears started listening and I started noting down her grades below mine in each subject. She was inching 5 marks more or less in each and finally in total she lead me by 5 marks in total.

A sudden feeling of defeat had mound in me and I felt pretty bad about my scores that moment. She turned back and smiled. Then I realized she was exactly doing what I was doing. I didn’t reply her smile back. Come on I lost and I wont be happy about that.

Many of my friends flunked. I always topped my gang. My gang is not so studious, it’s a mix of all and mostly fun loving and we keep ourselves away from the bookworms. Even my friends at times wonder how I manage good grades even though we all are together most of the time and don’t spend much time in studying.

After the school, she came to me told me, ‘You have two more terms left.’

At that moment, I wanted to challenge her and win her next time pretty badly. I hid my emotions and smiled back saying, ‘will see’.

Next term went good and this time I lead her by 50 marks and was proud of my victory. I even made it to the top 3.

She was still smiling and was happy about it. I was just wondering if it’s the same smile I had cast last time. But couldn’t doubt it as it was so genuine.

And the monsoon broke in my heart.

Next day I woke up early and came half an hour early to school. I was chatting with my buddies but constantly looking at the entrance. First bell rang and she was not there, the second bell rang and still she didn’t make it. She didn’t turn up to school that day.

It continued for 2 more days and the next day she was entering through the school gates, I could spot her easily amidst the last minute student rush as the gates would be closed in few seconds. I wanted to ask her whether she was upset on losing to me but kept quiet. She gave her medical certificate to the teacher and sat in her desk. She turned back and smiled. Her face looked pale. I inquired if she is ok through my gestures and she shook her head. I was relieved by that.

We had a free hour and our class was a bit noisy. The principal disciplined us by forming groups and sending each group to a different room with some tasks to complete.

And the lady luck was with me and we both were in the same group. We had to read a poem and give a test on that after that. Our group decided to read on their own and meet after 30 mins and see where we stand. I sat across her and we chose to go to the play ground as it would be calm and nice.

It was a bit breezy that day. I read two lines of the poem and looked up. She was sitting across me. A few strands couldn’t win the light breeze and were set loose. It was such a pleasant sight to watch. I couldn’t stop staring at her. After some time, she started curling her hair and started playing with it while memorizing the poem.

From that moment on, I was completely into her. I started to be with her more from that day on and even we did our studies together. I enjoyed each and every moment with her.

We know there is something happening between us, but we never were candid on that fact.

Our rest of the term went well, I was consistent in top 5 and she on the next spot.

We gave our final exams and were at the same spot in the end.

The results were out and I was pretty sure we would get to choose what we want to do in high school because of our good grades.

She came to me and she didn’t look so happy. She asked me what I am going to do. I like computers a lot and told her that. She encouraged it and even she wanted to do that. But her parents were forcing her to do medicine.

I felt a bit bad for her. But the next info really put me down. It was like a hole punched in my heart. She said, ‘My parents have decided to put me in a different school.’

The whole world froze for a second. I wanted to ask her a lot of questions, but kept quiet. She wanted me to write something on her slam book. There were many things going on in my mind. Should I tell her I love her, Should I tell her how much I will miss her.

I had her book in my hand but didn’t know how to proceed. I saw her face once again; there was thousand meanings to our expressions.

Finally I asked her, ‘Will u be in touch with me even after going to ur new school?’

She just said, ‘I will miss u a lot.’ Her eyes were a bit moist, she ran away out of my sight.

Later I came to know that, actually her father was transferred to a different city and she is leaving town that night.

10th Standard

The breeze has done the trick,
The monsoon is broken in my heart,
Her smiles, her images filled all the space
All the other things except her was blurred
When she was around,
The time for the next has come.
The lady love was not happy with it.
I will miss her.
I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue - 9th Standard

2009-02-14T14:21:00.003+05:30

Continution...

After some days, We didn’t discuss about it for some days and finally one day…

she said “U know I am in love”…

I was shocked and like a poor child waiting for his meal was expecting my name next.

She said “U remember one guy had bet to know whether we love each other or not. Such a stupid guy he is. We are best friends and he doesn’t know that.”

With all the dreams shattering behind I managed to say “Yes… we are just best friends.”

She said “U don’t want to know the guy I love?”

I said “Of course I do, I am ur best friend.”

She said “He is none other than the same guy who wanted to know whether we love each other or not.” saying that she was blushed showing her chubby white cheeks turning pink and ran away inside her house.

I stood there for some time and started moving. Only one phrase ringed in my mind ‘Move on’…

Even though I didn’t wanted to know, I started hearing about their stories every now and then and that too in her own words.

She didn’t come to class for 3 straight days and came to know that her boy friend dumped her and is going around with some other junior girl.

She resumed school but was not the same girl anymore.

9th Standard

The phone rang. On the other end,
it was her. She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how her
love had broke her heart.
She locked her inside and was in dark all time.
As I saw her later,
I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
After 2 hours, after an appeasing discussion, she decided to go home.
She looked at me, said 'thanks' and smiled at me..
I want to tell her, I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue - 8th Standard

2009-02-14T14:06:00.004+05:30

Continuation....

The year ended in high note and I was waiting for the next year to start…

I went to the staff room to find that Mathematics teacher resigned as she is getting married and settling down in Kerala…

I felt like the whole world was closing on me… that was a big disappointment…

Life moves on and so do I…

Living in a BoysVsGirls world that time… The whole of my community (Boys) would always wanna compete and win Girls… We outsmarted them in every other event (sports, culturals, etc.,. )… (Till the end we couldn’t beat them in grades though… :=))))

There was one girl in my class with whom I used to pick quarrels pretty easily... But these doesn't stand long.

It continued for quite a while and suddenly one guy told me that “u guys have some chemistry going on…”

I didn’t understand it that time.

I joined private Mathematics coaching classes as all my buddies have enrolled. 8 – 4 fun time was not enough for us… :=)))

She also joined the coaching classes and I used to pick her up from her home… Her parents trusted in me and thought it would be safe to go with me… I had a pretty good image in the society… :=)))

We were five mates paired up for the classes daily… we used to chat about anything and everything on our walk… It was almost 3 Kms from our place but still we decided to walk to the place as we thought can have some time chatting and never ever regretted the decision….

I started feeling better in her company and never skipped the coaching classes.

Time started flying away again and I lived through every moment of it in gay.

She became responsible for all my sleepless nights and wonderful dreams if I get to sleep…

Two guys had a bet for 5 bucks… they wanted to confirm whether I and that girl love each other... I came to know about it later though…

Suddenly one day, the other guy told her that he wants to talk to her for some time… They were walking some 10 yards before the rest of us and one guy in the team who knew about it broke what all that fuzz is all about…

Deep inside I was pretty anxious to know the result…

After some time, that guy started walking towards us and my heart started pacing faster than light…

She further inquired whether I had sent him to know about it and he told her about the bet…

He told us that she didn’t answer and asked for the other guy who is involved in the bet…

The next day I couldn’t make eye contact with her… she went and sat in the last bench all alone the whole day…

I didn’t speak to her the whole day and she skipped the coaching class that day…

I started feeling bad…

Next day I could see some difference. She was back to her normal rhythm.

8 th Standard

As I sat there in coaching class,
I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so called 'best friend'.
I stared at her short, curled hair,
and wished she was mine.
But she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it. After class,
she walked up to me and asked me for
the notes she had missed the day before.
I handed them to her.
She said 'thanks' and smiled at me.
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Lovelogue – 7th Standard

2009-02-14T12:56:00.004+05:30

Warning : This post would get u nostalgic.

Feb 14 – Valentines Day…

Be it a crush, attraction, foolishness, unreal, stupid… what ever it is there would be only one name for it all LOVE… atleast for a second…

And I am sure that, that every second would be inscripted on ur heart for ever...

These ROM memories would never be erased… :=)))

How about a story on it… So here it goes…

*************************************************
It all started when I was 11 years old….

That was my first day after summer vacation and the first class was Mathematics.

The whole class was excited to attend the first class after a break…(But I bet 1 day would be it… :=P )

We were all chatting, pulling each other and suddenly a voice broke… “Good Morning Students” and we automatically stood up and replied in chorus… “Good Morning Miss” (We use Miss instead of Mam)

I still remember the sight of her… I don’t know whether she was the beautiful woman in this world but it had hit me… hit me really hard that I don’t know how long it took but it took some time to recover until the introductions were already on and it was my turn to introduce me to the new teacher and the whole class is waiting for me to finish it…

Thanks to my buddy who poked me to get me back to senses and I completed a fumbled intro… then regretted, what an impression it would have left about me on her…Forty minutes of the times disappeared in no time and before leaving she asked for the “Class Leader” and I was thanking my class teacher and my mates for electing me before the class started…

I stood up in response and she said “Srikanth, could u get me the name list of ur class?”
She remembered my name inspite of my fumbled intro… I said “Sure Miss… I will hand it over to u during recess”
These were the first words we exchanged…

It was too early for me to name this feeling… I decided that day that I would marry her and her only what ever happens…

I concentrated hard in her subject to impress her by getting good scores…

I was completely in a different world when ever I had to talk to her...

I always prioritized Mathematics assignments and never ever left a black mark in her views... I had to compromise that by skipping some other assignments and getting punishments for that though… :=)))

She taught me Venn Diagrams and I still follow this in all my analogy… The unions, intersections and the set differences are registered deep in my mind…

7 th Standard

As I sat there in Mathematics class,
I stared at her.
She was my so called 'Maths Teacher'.
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine.
After class,
she walked up to me and asked me for
the ‘class names list’.
I handed them to her.
She said 'thanks' and smiled at me.
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just a student,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

To be continued…………………..

Slogging blues

2009-02-02T14:52:00.008+05:30

Warning : Sloggers will lose their identity…

sloggers

Main Entry:

¹slog

Pronunciation:

\ˈsläg\

Function:

verb

Inflected Form(s):

slogged; slog·ging

Etymology:

origin unknown

Date:

1824

transitive verb 1 : to hit hard : beat 2 : to plod (one's way) perseveringly especially against difficulty intransitive verb 1 : to plod heavily : tramp <slogged through the snow> 2 : to work hard and steadily : plug

— slog·ger noun

Hope u guys would have guessed what this blog is all about by now.

What do u get by slogging?

There is a straight and simple answer for this… NOTHING…

Then why do people slog…

Still I don’t know why in this so-called fast moving world, there are some who still drive in a bullock cart.

This sect which I am talking about has a principle.

“Slogging solves all issues”

But I strongly believe slogging slows u down. It kills the spirit in u.

How???

If u finish a task by slogging, u clearly leave an impression to others that u can complete the task in lesser time. By this ur deadlines are shortened.

To be successful in this run, u surely have to be FAST & CONSISTENT. The days of SLOW & STEADY are all gone.

And to maintain the pace, u will slog a bit more. The more the consistent u look the more the noose tightens around ur neck.

Let me give u a peek of the after effects…

· U wont be able to make it up to the friends parties.

·· U will stop contacting them.

·· Even ur timely mails like “Hey!!! Wassup!!!”, “Hows life” would halt.

· Slowly ur friends lose u. (not intentional though… just practical…)

· U will become a night crawler.

· U would rather participate in the family affairs over phone. (though u stay with them.)

· Those cheeky chat sessions with ur family & friends is lost forever.

· Slowly u lose ur family. (they are not responsible though…)

· U become a paying guest in ur own family.

· More importantly, U wont have time for urself.

· Ur food habits chages.

· Ur health will detoriate without ur knowledge.

· Ur body clock functions but can never guarantee its battery life.

· Ur taste will die... especially ur dressing sense… ;=)

· Forget about ur body shape, even an earthen pot looks gud… :=P

In short, ur personality is all screwed up.

U may think that u would be very successful in ur professional life. U would always be called a ‘PERFORMER’.

U think so… better give it a thought…

Every thing in life has a saturation point.

Once u reach it, the whole picture changes.

U feel stressed as u require something else in life which u don’t know what but is missing.

Slowly, ur performance degrades.

The whole community which called u a performer starts showing its naked face.

By the time u could retaliate both ur professional and social life would have been screwed up.

Here, I am not insisting on taking sides or making choices.

In this case all u need is a TRADEOFF.

Don't ever let the situation dominate u. Be assertive.

Let the white light pass through the prism to disperse rainbow rather than passing it through the shit hole…

U can earn the lost money but not the lost seconds.

Guys, so better think before u slog.

There are some who like watching others slog…

I don’t have any clues on where to position these freaks though… :=P

Even in cricket sloggers can never sustain… :=) They can hit some quick runs but never will have the class…

Wake up and act smart.

God Of War II

2009-01-27T13:14:00.004+05:30

Warning: gamers Stuff!!!

After slogging for two weeks straight at work, I needed a stress buster. And which can ever beat the games in reliving stress.

Here is my next conquer. This has improvised puzzles and enemies from the first part. Sometimes, I took help of the walkthrough’s though…:=P (But not always)

The moves were all the same with the names being altered. Now the war is not for the Gods but against the King of Gods– Zeus.

It’s time to challenge Gods with the ally of Titans and show the world the great war ever.
I liked the climax of the game which says

THE END BEGINS…

So, waiting to put my hands to end the Great War…(God Of War III)

The Ghost of Sparta is tamed till then….

Game Plot:

God of War II takes place some time after the events of the first game; Kratos, after his defeat of Ares, has become the new God of War, but has not been accepted by the other members of the Greek pantheon due to his ruthless treatment of the other Greek city-states. Kratos is still haunted by memories of the deeds from his past while working under Ares. He finds enjoyment the only way he can, by leading and aiding his Spartan army in conquering Greece.
Athena pleads that Kratos stop, telling him that she cannot protect him much longer from the wrath of the gods and that he should not turn his back on her because it was she who made him a god. Kratos replies that he owes nothing to her and descends to Rhodes to assist his Spartan army.
As Kratos arrives to destroy the city, an eagle, which Kratos believes to be Athena in disguise, robs him of almost all of his godly power, infusing them into the Colossus of Rhodes and bringing it to life to kill Kratos. After a protracted conflict with the metal giant that rages across the city, Zeus offers Kratos the Blade of Olympus, which Zeus himself used to overthrow Cronos and the Titans.
At Zeus' behest, Kratos infuses the blade with his godhood, rendering him mortal but enabling him to destroy the Colossus from the inside. As Kratos jumps from the falling Colossus, he shouts to the gods if he needs to prove anything more to them. However, Kratos is crushed and severely wounded by the Colossus' falling hand after the battle. Kratos realizes he must retrieve the Blade of Olympus to save himself.
As he slowly gets up and limps his way to the sword, Zeus reveals himself as the eagle that stole his power. Zeus explains he betrayed Kratos to save himself and Olympus from the same fate as Ares. Zeus then offers Kratos one final chance at being a god, provided that he forever serve him. Kratos says he serves no one, and Zeus, claiming Kratos has left him no other choice, slays him.
Zeus tells Kratos that the path was his own choosing and, though mortally wounded, Kratos still defies Zeus, saying that 'a choice from the gods is as useless as the gods themselves'. An enraged Zeus drives the blade further into Kratos' chest. Zeus whispers that everything Kratos has ever known will suffer for his sacrilege - Kratos will never be the ruler of Olympus and 'the cycle ends here'. He then pulls the sword out of Kratos and uses the weapon's power to destroy the fighting warriors of Sparta and Rhodes. As Zeus is walking away, Kratos gives him a warning as he dies: "You will pay for this, Zeus… Be certain of that."
However, as Kratos is being dragged towards an eternity of torment in Hades, he is saved by Gaia, the mother of the Titans who reveals herself to be the franchise's narrator and offers an alliance; when the Titans were defeated by the Olympians, they were punished and humiliated, and they want Kratos' help to exact revenge. Kratos escapes the Underworld and is bidden by Gaia to find the Sisters of Fate in order to change his past. She gives Kratos the aid of the magical horse Pegasus to traverse the distance to the Fates.
Kratos and Pegasus, after a detour to a mountain that houses the Titan Typhon and the former Titan Prometheus, fly to the Island of Creation where the Sisters of Fate (the Moirae) await. As he explores the island, Kratos encounters the likes of Theseus, whom he kills in battle to determine who is the greatest warrior of Greece (and to take his key in order to venture onward), Perseus, who is there to change the fate of his beloved Andromeda, and the revived Barbarian King from the original God of War who has fought his way out of Hades to change his fate.
Kratos also encounters an elderly Icarus who is on the brink of insanity and tackles Kratos off a cliff, saying that it is his fate, none others, to seek an audience with the Sisters. While both are falling, Kratos rips off Icarus' wings and sails below the Earth where it is being held up by Atlas, as Icarus falls to his death far below.
Kratos lands upon the Titan Atlas below the earth and tries to communicate with him. At first, Atlas refuses to help Kratos, bent on crushing the human for what he has done to him. However, Kratos manages to persuade Atlas to help him so that he may change his fate and kill Zeus. The Titan accepts the offer, giving Kratos the last of his magic and helping him back to the surface so that he may continue his quest.
After an expedition through the Sisters' Palace, Kratos encounters an unknown warrior who is also seeking to reach the Sisters. Without either of them knowing who the other one is at the time due to the darkness, Kratos rams the man through a stain-glass window after a fight and is shocked to see that the man is the very Spartan he had told to return to Sparta and prepare for a battle against Olympus. The Spartan reveals that Zeus has destroyed Sparta and that he was seeking the Sisters to change that. He tells Kratos as he dies that he has faith that Kratos will finish what he has started. Kratos is despondent and bereft of the will to carry on, but is inspired by Gaia to continue the battle. She promises Kratos that Zeus will fall, saying 'this battle is just the start of a great war that is to come...'
Kratos finally confronts the Sisters, Lakhesis, Atropos and Clotho, who operate and defend the Loom of Fate, which rules the lives of mortals and gods alike. Kratos first encounters Lakhesis. She reveals that it was she who decided the Titans lose the Great War and allowed Kratos to come this far. They fight and Kratos defeats her, but she then summons Atropos, who takes Kratos back to the time of his final fight with Ares in the first God of War.
As Kratos and Ares disappear (as Kratos fights to protect his family in an illusion caused by Ares), Atropos attempts to destroy the Blade of the Gods—the sword that Kratos used to kill Ares—reasoning that if the sword is destroyed, Ares can kill Kratos, causing him to die in both the past and the present. He stops her and goes back to the present to face Lahkesis one more time. As he fights Lahkesis, Atropos intervenes from the three mirrors in the room, meaning Kratos must fight both at the same time. Kratos destroys Atropos' first two mirrors, then traps Lahkesis and Atropos in the last mirror and destroys it, trapping the two Sisters in the past for eternity, and opening the path to Clotho, who pleads with Kratos as he approaches that his manipulation of fate will destroy everything.
It should be noted that before entering Clotho's chambers, Kratos sees three murals describing past, present, and future events. The first referencing the Great War between the Titans and Olympians in the past and the threat of its revival, the second showing a lone man surveying the carnage of a great battle that is waging on below him, and the last alluding to the journey of The Three Wise Men toward the birth of Christ. Upon reaching Clotho, Kratos impales her in the head with a swinging blade, leaving him to control the loom.
He first goes back to his death at Zeus' hands in Rhodes, reclaiming the Blade of Olympus and inciting a lengthy battle with the King of the Gods. At the end of the fight, Zeus is striking Kratos with an unstoppable lightning storm, leaving Kratos to call out to Zeus that he surrenders. Kratos asks him to release him from his life and his torment, and as Zeus is about to execute Kratos, stating that "I would release you from your life, my son, but your torment is just beginning", Kratos dodges the blow and pins Zeus' hands to the rock with his blades. Kratos then takes the Blade of Olympus and begins driving it into Zeus' abdomen.
Athena arrives and defends Zeus. Kratos angrily battles her, snarling at her for having the gall to stand against him. Athena replies she doesn't wish to fight, but she will defend Olympus. The badly wounded Zeus attempts to escape, telling Kratos he has started a war he cannot hope to win, as the Fates have already deemed Zeus victorious. As Kratos tries to charge forward and slay Zeus as he flees, Athena interposes herself, saving her father at the cost of her own life. Her dying words reveal that Zeus' actions are meant to break the cycle of son killing father, which goes back to Cronos killing Uranus, and Zeus defeating Cronos.
By killing Kratos (the son) before he can kill Zeus (the father), Zeus had hoped to break the cycle—thus revealing that Kratos is, in fact, Zeus' own son, and begs him to relent in his quest for vengeance. After a moment of apparent shock and shame, Kratos darkens and snarls that he has no father. Athena dies in Kratos' arms, saying that all the gods on Olympus will deny Kratos, defending Zeus so Olympus will prevail. She says that even though Kratos wishes to kill Zeus, Zeus is Olympus. Kratos then vows to exact retribution on Zeus and any god who will deny him his vengeance, screaming that their time is at an end, swearing that 'If all on Olympus will deny me my vengeance, then all on Olympus will die!'
Returning to the Loom, which is now collapsing, Kratos uses it once again to go further back in time to The Great War as it ends. Kratos screams to Gaia, "Gaia, we can win the Great War! But not in this time! Together, we will destroy the petty gods and we would see Olympus crumble before us! Return to my time. Victory awaits you." He then brings Gaia and the Titans back to the present with him. Meanwhile, Zeus rallies his fellow gods Poseidon, Hades, Hermes and Helios together (the identities of these gods were confirmed in God of War: Chains of Olympus), urging them to unite and defeat Kratos. As Zeus spits out triumphantly, "Olympus shall prevail!", the entire temple of Olympus begins to shake. The gods run over to the balcony to see the Titans brought forward in time by Kratos beginning to scale the mountain and bearing Kratos with them to end the Great War between the Gods and the Titans once and for all. As Zeus looks down in horror, Kratos shouts up to him, "Zeus! Your son has returned! I bring the destruction of Olympus!" as the city below them burns.

The game finishes with a prophetic warning: The End Begins....

God of War

2009-01-13T11:18:00.003+05:30

Warning : gamers stuff!!!

After continuously hooked on to my PS2, I defeated the God of War. Though it’s a bit late after its release when actually I got my hands on it. It was an awesome experience. The pissed of look on the characters face and the sturdiness in his character is a surely a plus for the game. Each and every level has a challenge which can’t be crossed by jus severing all the enemies but to think and solve the puzzles.

With Greek Gods (Zeus, Poseidon, Athena, Hades, Ares (earlier God of war.. :=))))) the game just gets more cinematic story board. The purpose of the mission is clear and simple. I am lost of words describing the nuances of it.

Now its not Kratos(the character which drives the game) who is the new God of War, Its

I - God of War.

This game keeps u jolted to it till the end. New puzzles to solve and deadly enemies to kill. Get the spirit of the Spartan from within... So guys get ur hands on this and I bet u would fill ur blogs with ur experiences…

This God of War will be watching u till then… :=P

GAME PLOT :

God of War is a third-person action video game, focused on the player using melee attacks, magic abilities, and combinations of the two to defeat foes. The player controls Kratos' movements, including jumping, swimming, and climbing, as well as his attacks. Kratos' primary weapons are the Blades of Chaos, which can be used in a number of different types of attacks, varying in power, speed, and range of damage. Throughout the game, Kratos also gains the abilities of several magical artifacts, such as the head of Medusa that can be used to turn foes into stone. Damaging and killing an enemy will release one of three types of orbs: red orbs can be redeemed to power up Kratos' attacks, and green and blue orbs immediately restore Kratos' health and magic, respectively. As the player fights, a meter reflecting the "Rage of the Gods" begins to fill; when the meter is full, the player can activate the power by simultaneously pressing the L3 and R3 buttons. Kratos is engulfed by electricity, and the power of his attacks are temporarily increased. Should Kratos lose all his health, the game is over, but the player has the option of restarting at the last checkpoint; the game will also offer the player the opportunity to attempt the game at a lower difficulty level if they have restarted from the same checkpoint several times in a row. The lower difficulty only changes the enemies skill, and does not help in the many puzzles throughout the game.

When certain enemies, in particular certain boss battles and larger foes, are low in health, the player can initiate a special Quick Time Event killing sequence as indicated by a marker over the enemy's head (the Circle button symbol). This starts a sequence of moves by Kratos that will display a controller button or an analog-stick action briefly on the screen during the attack; the player must hit that button or move the analog stick as indicated within a short time for the killing sequence to continue, otherwise the sequence will be broken and the enemy will grab Kratos and toss him away. However, if the player successfully responds to each sequence, then Kratos will finish off the enemy in a bloody and spectacular fashion, and gain a higher yield of orbs. Most bosses can only be killed using these "fatality" minigames, increasing the cinematic feel of the game.

In addition to the melee aspects of the game, the player will also need to solve environmental puzzles, such as sliding boxes or statues around to depress switches, turning levers to open doors, or similar moves. Chests are scattered about the levels, and can be opened to reveal orbs, gorgon eyes, or phoenix feathers, the latter two can be collected to expand Kratos' health and magic capacity, respectively. Destructible environmental objects can also be broken to retrieve red orbs. Each of Kratos' abilities can be improved using the red orbs; each of the abilities have several levels that improves that ability's effectiveness as well as introducing new combination moves the player can use.

Most of the foes in the game are inspired by creatures from Greek mythology, including Medusa, the Minotaur, and the Lernaean Hydra, among others.

Wait few more days for God of War 2 blog… I am game for it… :=)))

$uRvIvor - Guardian Angel!!!

2009-01-06T14:05:00.001+05:30

Drink but dont lose urself!!!

SuRvIvor’s Law

2008-12-26T13:16:00.004+05:30

Do U believe in reincarnation?

If u doesn’t then I bet u will change ur mind by the end of this post.

Let me tell u a short story:

There was a guy who completed his Engg. in computers and was placed in some Indian based MNC through campus.

He decides to shave his head thinking that the company would give at least 3 to 4 months of time to join. Once he shaves his head, he gets a mail from the company asking him to join in 15 days time.
He had to go with a glaring head to mark his step in the professional world.

He enquired all his friends for their dates and comes to know that he is one among the handpicked who has to go to Bhubaneswar for training.
He was not even sure where that place was and on top of that most of his friends were posted in Trivandrum.

He went to Bhubaneswar and started enjoying his days as it was all like a college after college out there. Then came the time when the postings were decided. He was given some choices and he has to choose 3 from them. His choices were Chennai, Mumbai, Delhi and Ahmedabad. Being a guy from Chennai, he opted for Chennai, Mumbai and Ahmedabad. And finally the day came when the postings were decided and he gets Mumbai. Even though he didn’t get Chennai, he didn’t crib as some of his friends were also posted in Mumbai. And just before one week of his last day, he gets a notice from the management saying eight guys from the whole batch has to report to Ahmedabad.
Guess what, this guy was one among them.

He packs off to Ahmedabad with seven other batch mates. The pretty looking HR comes and meets this batch and gives some insight of the projects in hand and shocks them by saying four guys among this batch would be deported to Baroda.
And exactly as u are guessing, this guy is one among the four who has to leave to Baroda.

He packs his 2 bags and is off to Baroda. Just before 15 Kms the bus broke down and it’s almost ten. He and the three others had no other option than to wait for another bus. They were on the road with the bags and waiting for the next bus, and out of nowhere it suddenly started raining and a quick one leaving no time to hide. Imagine, that guy started drenching in rain in formals with two heavy bags in his hands.
One bus which passes by stops some five yards from where they were waiting. He has to sprint to reach as there was only less room inside that bus. He with all his other mates succeeds and the rain stops once they make it to the bus.

Next stop is the bus stop and he got down half drenched and gets in an auto to the hotel, the Admin instructed him to go there as the rooms were booked for the first three days. Time was past 11 by the time he reached and already was all exhausted. He gets into the hotel just to know that there was no booking done on his name and all the rooms were full. Finally some relief, he gets to know that there were some rooms available in some sister concern of that hotel.

This is how his professional career started. This is not it. Lot more happened after that. But I guess for proving incarnation exists, this would be more than enough.

How is this linked to reincarnation is what u are thinking???

Some may call it bad luck… some may call it destiny… There are some who call it Murphy’s Law…

And assuming Murphy wrote this law out of his own experiences.

The guy in the story is none other than the reincarnation of Murphy himself. If Murphy wouldn’t have phrased this law, then I would have surely patented it with my name.

Coz, the guy in this story is I!!!

And I tagged me as SuRvIvor from that day on.

Believe it or not, Murphy’s Law just doesn’t put u down, rather it makes u strong enough to break the walls.

“Happiness is inversely proportional to expectations/desires”.

So, better take it as it comes and live every moment happily.

That ends from now on the SuRvIvor’s Law.

Murphy's Discovery: Do you know Presidents talk to the country the way men talk to women?
They say, "Trust me, go all the way with me, and everything will be all right."
And what happens? Nine months later, you're in trouble! :=)))

Drunkard’s Wisdom

2008-12-09T20:18:00.002+05:30

The Buffalo Theory goes like this…

“A herd of buffalo can only move as fast as the slowest buffalo. And when the herd is hunted, it is the slowest and weakest ones at the back that are killed first. This natural selection is good for the herd as a whole, because the general speed and health of the entire group keeps improving by the regular killing of the weakest members. In much the same way, the human brain can only operate as fast as the slowest brain cells. Now, as we know, excessive intake of alcohol kills brain cells. But naturally, it attacks the slowest and weakest brain cells first. In this way, regular consumption of alcohol eliminates the weaker brain cells, making the brain a faster and more efficient machine. And that is why you always feel smarter after a few drinks.”

I am not supporting drunkards, but we cannot deny the fact as well...

I even found an interesting article on wiki about liquor and health.

It’s not that who ever drinks is gonna die of some hard-to-spell disease or neither is that person an anti-social element.

It is perfectly fine as long as u control it rather than it commanding u… Don’t challenge ur stamina with alcohol… Have it till u can maintain equilibrium, not even a sip more than that… Violation leads to deadly consequences which u repent the next Morning… This is not an advice, just the fact issued in public interest.

This is just to unknot some of the blindfolded eyes. Alcohol is no more a taboo… ;=)))

By the Way, I am not a DRUNKARD!!! Just a man as my definition says…

“Man is a social drinker” ;=)

Cheers…

Warning: Chronic Alcohol Consumption is Injurious to health… :=)))

To Blog is Human

2008-12-09T20:10:00.002+05:30

Warning: My blog is not to research but just to read… ;=)

First Blog – After doing a lot of home work on what should be my first blog, I finally decided to kick it off…

How did I get to blog all of a sudden? – I had to do this as I am a responsible human being.

Confused on y??? Here is the answer…

Global Warming!!!

Thinking on how on Earth blogging is linked to Global warming…

Every Year I think of maintaining Journals and buy diaries to fill it... The excitement lasts for two days or max three days where I jot down even how many times I winked that day and after that the diary would join the old news papers bundle, lost forever. That diary would have been made of at least a branch of a tree. Like wise, most of the trees are deforested and this contributes to the already burning Global warming… so, directly or indirectly I am responsible for it… By blogging, the thought of Journals is lost forever…

Got a head ache already reading this??? :=)

So, now u know how my blog is going to be…

Happy Reading!!!